My Dream Room

My dream room.
There's a king sized bed.
A little table just beside it.
When i woke up, i saw a wall in front.
Just behind the wall, there's a long chair.
Where i can lay down a bit to see the view.
From the chair, i see through the glass wall.
A view from a skyscraper.
A mass city far below.
Maybe i should have a telescope to peek through to see the people.
Yes, my room is in a very tall building.
Hundreds of levels above the ground.
I want to be far from people.
That brings sadness and hatred.
Sad of being left behind after living together.
Hate of becoming obliged to care so that you also treated the same.
In that dream room.
I have my own kitchen, just behind the bed.
And on the leftside of the bed, there's the bathroom, a little pool tub, and the clothing room.
Where all things that come out in the tv advertisement became available.
Anything. From pizza, soap, or shoe.
I wish i got evrything. FREE.
But that ain't gonna happen.
Because it is after all just a dream.

My dream room.

Marriage

24 yrs of life experience, the most critical aspect that i view about marriage, is responsibility. The care for each other. The mix of religion and culture disciplines, where we must satisfy both families. And the anticipation of the next generation. Where more responsibilities lies ahead.

I've read a webpage that says:

"The fact is that all marriages have problems that cause conflict and strain the relationship. Among the most common problems:

• Money. There never seems to be enough, or if there is, one person is upset about how the other spends it.
• Sex. It's the reason 45 percent of couples seek marriage counseling. Usually, one partner desires sex more often and on different terms than the other.
• Work. Partners have different role expectations about who does what within and outside of the home.
• Children. Couples may disagree over how to raise and discipline children."

There's nothing that i can disagree with all of these points. Every marriage, youth or old, would face all those problems and deal with it varily.

For me, i really don't even know yet if i'll pass all of these circumstances blissfully, or wacky, or none at all. Hoped not the least.

Terakhir - edited

Mengapakah kita tak mampu terima takdirnya
Tak mampu berserah jiwa dan raga
Apakah kita tak mampu memiliki
Lelah bagiku
Tenat jadiku

Apakah salahnya
Kita menjadi begini
Tinggal sendiri
Terus sendiri
Mimpi yang ku damba
Kau tak dapat jadikan nyata
Jelas bagiku

Melepaskanmu
Bukan mudah bagiku untuk melalui semua ini
Pabila kenangan kita mengusik jiwa dan hati
Kala malam tidurku tak lena mengenangkanmu
Ku cuba perlahankan
Separuh masa ku hilang pabila bersamamu
Episod cinta mimpiku kini tiada lagi
Tiada lagi untuk menyakiti jiwa dan hati

Oh tuhan
Ku mahu yang terbaik
Terbaik buatku
Insan kerdil ini

Oh tuhan
Noktahkan keputusan ini
Tolonglah dia
Dia terakhir buatku

Ratusan Purnama - edited

Lirik_akemi_aisara

Ratusan purnama berlalu
Tapi cinta tak pernah berlalu
Walau ku usir engkau di hidupku
Tapi cintaku tetap diam

Ratusan purnama berlalu
Sendirian aku tanpa cinta
Tak pernah ada cinta yang lain
Hatiku terbuka hanya untukmu

Duhai cinta enggan menawar rasa
Gelombang anganmu terlalu berlebih

Berderik-derik bunyi jantungku
Bila ku kenang wajahmu
Biar jauh jarak jodoh kita
Namun hati dan jiwaku
Tetap juga setia di sisimu

Duhai cinta sulit ku luahkan
Diam dan dinginku merana
Ribuan hari kumelayanimu
Membaca semua rasa hatimu
Mengering raga ini mengharapkan
Ratusan purnama
Cinta kita berlabuh

Ratusan purnama
Cinta kita berlabuh jua
Ratusan purnama
Cinta kita 
Berlabuh