ROZA ROSLAN – BUKAN SEKADAR RESEPI (2012)

Penceritaan santai. Penuh pengisian. Sentiasa diselangi puji-pujian ke hadrat Ilahi. Alhamdulillah. Subhanallah. Allahu akbar. Sehingga pembacanya juga ikut bertasbih, walaupun tanpa sedar. 3 minggu dalam simpanan. Kini tiba masa untuknya pulang menemui pemiliknya – Perpustakaan Negeri Kedah. Insya-Allah, jika dimudahkan rezeki, akan kubeli menggunakan baucer buku 1M yg masih utuh 5 keping dalam dompetku ini. Kerana sejarah yang dimiliki, membuatkan resepi tersebut kelihatan mengujakan untuk dicuba. Walaupun ada yang kelihatan biasa, seperti nasi goreng atau jemput2, namun sejarah di sebalik penemuan resepinya membuat diriku kagum. Terdetik juga untuk mengikut jejak beliau, mencatat resepi hasil tangan sendiri kurniaan Ilahi, seperti yang tercatit dalam dua buah diari resepi ‘keramat’ ibuku. Cuma yang terkurang hanyalah cerita di sebalik resepi. Sesungguhnya aku masih di bab pertama atau kedua dalam pengisahan cerita. Dan masih memasak untuk diri sendiri setiap hari. Tiada sensory evaluator tetap seperti Katie atau Emak, Mak Wa, dan Wan.

Labis::Kg. Paya Jakas, Jementah, Segamat:: Institut Teknologi MARA (ITM) Dungun::KL::Besut, Terengganu:: Dundee, Scotland, UK::Kuching::Bangor, North Wales, UK::Madinah al-Munawwarah

Kehidupan yang sangat berbeza. Antara aku dan beliau. Hidup serba sederhana. Bermastautin dari satu tempat ke satu tempat. Di dalam bukunya juga diakui, beliau dan suami telah menikmati pelbagai makanan penduduk tempatan di melebihi 20 negara yang berbeza. Berbeza sekali denganku, walaupun setelah hidup setua 22 tahun, hanya pernah menjejak ke sempadan Thailand, tidak pernah lagi menggunakan pasport antarabangsa. Beliau yang hanya sekitar 2x ganda umurku, telah mengharungi pelbagai pengalaman bermakna yang memberi pengajaran tersendiri. Begitu jua ibuku yang hampir seusia beliau, dilahirkan pada 1963.

Pun begitu,aku tertarik dengan frasa “Nikmat Allah yang mana satukah yang mahu kita dustakan?”. Walau membesar dalam serba kekurangan, dengan kehendak yang selalunya sangat sukar dipenuhi, mereka belajar berdikari, berdiri atas kaki sendiri, mencuba pelbagai alternatif yang akhirnya menerbitkan perkongsian ilmu yang bermanfaat. Di satu generasi lain pula, dari permulaan pandai bertatih sehingga ke menara gading, segala kehendak cuba dipenuhi. Disogok pula dengan rencana ilmu tanpa sempadan, yang kini hanya berada di hujung jari, tiada lagi istilah keseronokan dalam mencari ilmu. Segalanya tersedia di depan mata. Hanya perlu menaip dan klik ‘search’. Jadi, bagaimana pula dengan kesudahan generasi Y ini? Jawapannya kemungkinan besar sekali akan tertuai, pada generasi penyambung seterusnya. Apakah gaya dan lagak generasi tersebut pula, terserah kepada Allah Azzawajalla. Wallahu’alam.

White Collar (Season 1-2)

::Neal Caffery:: VS ::Peter Burke::

They story unfolds when Neal is nearly being out of prison..which is only about a few months left out of a four years' sentence.

His girlfriend show up, saying a threatening goodbye. Being ''awry'' of that, Neal took a desperate escape and this is where Agent Burke stood in the way, caught him for the second time. Thinking out of the box, Neal offer his service to the FBI in turn for a chance to stay 'outside' prison. Henceforth, he could squeeze a way of getting in touch with Kate.

Being with Burke for quite some time, they formed a tie, for which I see that relation, like father and son kind of thing. Neal being in youth, always liked adventure and naughty slacks. While Burke puts him in control, make sure he does not go out of bound.

Following this series until Season 2, I think I can make a bet on the ending. Up to here, its said that Kate was killed in the airplane and Neal's busy chasing after whoever the culprit is. The main suspect was Fowler, the FBI agent who lead Neal to get onto the plane in the first place. And so the controversy goes on.

So far as I'm concerned, seeing that Burke got the most access on Neal's background, and seeing Neal's attitude towards life. What would Kate do? Well, during the three years Neal being dormant in prison, there is just no way she'd do nothing about it. Well, its just a hypothesis. If Kate really want to spend her lifetime with Neal, she wouldn't want it be always on the run, like Neal always used to do. 

[Refer S1EP05 - the call between Neal and Kate]
Kate: Listen, i need you to tell me where you hid everything.

Neal: What?

Kate: The money, the bonds, the art -- all of it.

Neal: Why?

Kate: He wants something -- Something you took, something you hid.

Neal: I hid a lot of things.

Kate: Well, then, give him everything. If he gets what he wants, he'll let me come back to you.

Neal: Who is he?

Kate:
I can't tell you. it's too dangerous for you.
This is the only way you can help me.
You always told me I had to trust you.
Well, now you have to trust me.
I want to come home.
Please just tell me where you hid everything.
I want to come home.

Neal: It's the only leverage I got. Just stay there, okay? I'm coming up.

--and Kate went missing--

Nevertheless, Kate's identity was always being a mystery and hardly revealed.

Haganeno Rankin Jutsu (Fullmetal Alchemist) English

OP 01

I've still got a lot of years ahead of me to just erase this feelings?
I want to go back and finish the things that I've got to finish

I was supposed to be chasing after my ongoing dream
Yet I faltered over others while walking this thin, winding path
It's not that I want to return to those days

I'm searching for the sky I lost

Don't make that sad face,
As if you've fallen victim
As if you want people to pity you.

Tears aren't the end of your sins
You have to bear them painfully forever
Who are you waiting for in the maze of emotions,
where you can't even see the exit?

I want to blurt it out more justly
Just like how I wrote it in my white notebook
What do you want to run from?
That thing called "reality"?

I just want to scream out, "I'm only living to fulfill my wish!"
Can you hear me?
I can't take the safe way out of everything
I don't even have a place to return to

I'm always thankful for everyone's kindness
That's why I want to become stronger
(I'm on the way)
This is reminding me of the old days
This pain is all right with me

END 01

Say, the sky we saw that day, the scarlet sky
Do you remember it from that day?
We made a promise and a vow, while the early summer wind circled us
And we clung close together

Your forced smile holds elongated shadows
I pretend not to notice and continue on

All the while waiting for you to deliver some news at the table
Empty nights, mornings that will never arrive
I could see them from a mile away

Say, the sky we saw that day, the scarlet sky
I'm sure you'll remember it one day
While holding the promise we couldn't keep
We take our first steps down our own paths

OP 02

Drawn by a landscape as white as snow
I'm headed toward an unseen world

I've been travelling while lost under this gray sky
Every day with new maps, stained with my many dreams

I wonder is someday,
Even with these tiny steps of mine
I'll be able to travel beyond those clouds

I put on a bold front, end up hurting myself
I feel empty inside

It's started to rain,
and the raindrops began to repeat their scattered reflections

These straight rays of light start cross one another
And without telling anyone where they're headed
Across the endless distances, they pass through all the matter

I burn these faint afterimages onto my eyes
Under this sky, wherever I am,
I should be able to reach the unseen world.

END 02

Let it all out, let it all out
I don't have to act tough, right?
The scribbling someone made on the wall of a flower, is swaying

No one knows their true selves
Even tough we both lose and gain by embarking on this long, long path
And though there may be days loneliness strikes and makes us weep

Let's transform our tears and pains to stars
Let's light a candle to illuminate our tomorrow

And we'll hold our small hands over the fire,
to create stardust and an eternity,
that shines so brilliantly

Farewells may be unavoidable
Yet the seasons continue to change obliviously

Even if I lose myself, I'll continue to walk,
Walk by your side.

That's the one thing I'd like to never change

OP 03

Can't focus, my body is still puzzled about what to do
I'm trembling, I can't stop even if I try to control myself
Although neither sun nor moon are on my side
"I've no choice but to try"
Those were the words I muttered to myself

The odds aren't on my side, but running way'd be gutless
Even if I can't see the future, I'll just have to win it over wtih courage
Need to keep distance from the target as I hold myself back
All that's needed for victory is the pride to win

Will we celebrate with the wine of victory? Or
Will we end up kissing their feet in defeat?

There are two outcomes to everything
I want to control destiny

I need to seize the golden opportunity with my hands
I'll finish it up with my best poker face,
and drag them into a world of illusions

I'll find my way out of this endless pressure game
And leap over the borderline of honor
But what'll I need to sacrifice to make it happen?

What is the one thing I don't want to let go?

END 03

Even if we part and meet again,
I want to meet at this place
Then we'll hold hands to ensure we'll never be separated again

We used to talk all night until the sun rose,
And held hands till the sun went under the horizon
Let's walk together like this forever,
like light and shadow

I stand in the city,
staring off into space with lonely eyes
I can't find warmth on my own
By meeting you, I realized, how much strength love could give me

Even if we part and meet again,
I want to meet at this place
Then we'll hold hands to ensure we'll never be separated again

I can't sleep by myself, 'cause I can't dream without you
So take me to a place where uncertainty can't reach us
And let us bring light to the night sky with no stars

So long as you're with me, I can go to world's end
Even if it's a path I can't walk on my own
If you're by my side, I can walk it while humming a tune
If we're together, the world is mine

OP 05

The new morning we've finally found is being hampered by the past
What we cased after wasn't the future, but the past full of remorse

The ruthless memories won't stop playing
They won't be forgiving us for a long time
It's about now that a teardrop begin to roll down my fatigued cheeks

Will this rain ever stop?
I've been freezing for a long time
Why does the rain continue to fix on me?
I wonder if it could embrace me

Today, the rain falls again
Endlessly, it falls knowing no end
We nestle close to each other to share the warmth
Under this umbrella, you gently held out to me

END 05

Ever since that day passed
I promised myself that I'd never cry
But even while I hoarded up the pain
There was something I couldn't forgive myself for

I'll never be able to return to those days
I'm still powerless
I watch as the shards of memories disappear, one by one
Memories of when you were still with me

I long to become stronger than I am now
So that my voice will eventually reach you
If the wind happens to stop in the midst of my journey
I'll look up at the sky in search of you

Beyond the daybreak,
A ray of light breaks free,
A rainbow spans across the sky